i really dont have any idea what to ut down here today. so much has happened. sometimes it not always a good thing you know. the holidays were alright i guess. sorta like regular school days monday had choir. tuesday i stayed home and slept. wednesday it was that watercolour worshop thing. it was so cool eh. thursday choir again. friday i spent a whole day with my grand mother. saturday was choir YET AGAIN. and sunday was, interesting i guess. something big happened and i was so mortified. my reaction to the thing was shit. no seriously, i said shit. i'm such a doof. i didnt know what to say. it was like an automatic response. i didnt even let the person finish what s/he was going to say. i messed up.
ever felt like there was a day when you wake up and you have butterflies in your stomache and you just feel like something big is gonna happen? i have. thats what it felt like on sunday. so s/he told me something and i was happy/sad/confused/torn. yeah. all those feelings mixed together. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW AWFUL IT FELT?
but now theres this barrier between us. its like we dont talk like we used to. its as if all that time we spent as best friends went away in that moment. and s/he doesnt even look at me. it seems so strange. s/he hangs around anyone BUT me. jealous? probably. crazy? i dont think so. possesive? i hope and pray not. please please please let all this work out.
friday(that's tomorrow) there's a choir concert with ngee ann secondary. the tour group is okay i guess. but the concert group? not so great. the altos simply cannot be heard. stupid sec ones. hopless cases. their mouths dont even open. no matter how much i love my juniors, i have to admit. they stink so bad... Save me please!
