lovin' life.: March 2006
play around with the bounceicles. drag them round. jump on them. and more!

Tuesday, March 28, 2006
「 MOO! 6:27 pm 」

Headaches suck. Fevers suck. So in short being whomps. i was perfectly fine yesterday, then my system crashed today. i couldn't even open my eyes this morning. Major headache. And my mom gave me a lecture on sleeping early in the future. Guess what? i just nodded and grunted. i actually grunted. Oh and there's this dog upstairs that stinks.

by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Saturday, March 25, 2006
「 MOO! 9:32 pm 」

Disappointing much. choir is. i mean yeah. but doesnt matter. we'll get better. i hope. we just have to work harder and want it more than anything. yeah. i dont want to think so much about it anymore.

last night. oh wow. so super tiring. wanted to go to town with Rajesh, Syakir and the rest but i felt too tired. so i went back home. Vic was so nice. he took me home from ACS Barker. talked all the way home. goodness. mind blockage major.

i wanna dance all night to this DJ... random thought. i'm so late. oh, and my dad was happy this morning and he gave me 20 bucks out of the blue this morning whilst i was still sleeping. weird much...

i cant think of anything to blog.

MUCH LOVE!!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Thursday, March 23, 2006
「 MOO! 7:41 pm 」

hey all.


i really dont have any idea what to ut down here today. so much has happened. sometimes it not always a good thing you know. the holidays were alright i guess. sorta like regular school days monday had choir. tuesday i stayed home and slept. wednesday it was that watercolour worshop thing. it was so cool eh. thursday choir again. friday i spent a whole day with my grand mother. saturday was choir YET AGAIN. and sunday was, interesting i guess. something big happened and i was so mortified. my reaction to the thing was shit. no seriously, i said shit. i'm such a doof. i didnt know what to say. it was like an automatic response. i didnt even let the person finish what s/he was going to say. i messed up.


ever felt like there was a day when you wake up and you have butterflies in your stomache and you just feel like something big is gonna happen? i have. thats what it felt like on sunday. so s/he told me something and i was happy/sad/confused/torn. yeah. all those feelings mixed together. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW AWFUL IT FELT?


but now theres this barrier between us. its like we dont talk like we used to. its as if all that time we spent as best friends went away in that moment. and s/he doesnt even look at me. it seems so strange. s/he hangs around anyone BUT me. jealous? probably. crazy? i dont think so. possesive? i hope and pray not. please please please let all this work out.


friday(that's tomorrow) there's a choir concert with ngee ann secondary. the tour group is okay i guess. but the concert group? not so great. the altos simply cannot be heard. stupid sec ones. hopless cases. their mouths dont even open. no matter how much i love my juniors, i have to admit. they stink so bad... Save me please!


MUC LOVE!!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Thursday, March 16, 2006
「 MOO! 8:30 pm 」

BLAH! i'm bored. choir is crazy. i like fries. billy martin is cool. i think i'm sticking to one liners today. i'm tired. my throst hurts. i want water. good bye.

MUCH LOVE!!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Tuesday, March 14, 2006
「 MOO! 11:35 am 」

so i found this thing and i thought it was really beautiful and just had to post it. I just know you guys will like it. it's just brillant. i'm working to write like that. read it carefully. and then read it again. Repetition: i know you will like it.


It was a cold, snowy Monday night on the sidewalks of New York City. Snow drifted down from the sky, landing in hair and on lips and tongues. There was laughter and yelling, people running through the inches of snow, snowballs whizzing past cars and hitting shop windows.


The owner of the store came out and yelled angrily, shaking his fist at the poor girl who had thrown the snowball. Laughing, her boyfriend grabbed her and dragged her away.


He watched all of this silently as he walked along the street, averting his eyes as he glanced down at his feet. His feet crunched in the snow along the sidewalk, his own footprints mixing with the hundreds of people that had walked the sidewalk before him.


A snowball smashed on the wall mere inches from his nose snow hitting his new jacket, the soft wetness of it soaking in. He reached up and wiped the snow off his cheek and turned to where a teenager was standing, looking at him in shock.


"Sorry!" He called in mortification as his friend yanked him along, trying desperately not to laugh. A small smile crept across the man's face as he shook his head, sending drops of snow that had already melted flying.


He was a handsome man, in his early twenties. With shaggy black hair that never laid flat and bright grey eyes, women flocked to him. But he had only ever wanted one woman and he had gotten her.


Everyone had always told him he was too young to be married. His mother. His father. His sister. His brothers. His best friend.


But then again, he had always been stubborn. Always doing what he wanted, not what anyone else told him he should do.


In this case, it had been a horrible idea.


He kicked a snowball lying in front of him. A door opened, and the smell of coffee wafted out. The man sighed, pushing on past the coffee shop. He was going to make it home without any delays at all.


It had worked out, for about a year. Well, it was a year before he found it.


For her, it had worked for half a year before she got sick of him and cheated on him with some soccer hot-shot.


You see, she was one of those girls that was simply never satisfied. She always wanted more, and when it was given to her, it was never enough.


Which was the reason that he was out walking on a cold, snowy January night. He needed to get some fresh air, to think.


His ears were freezing, and he was pretty sure they were beet red. The air was nippy but not extremely cold, which was why the snow was coming down in big, white fluffy snowflakes, landing in his hair and melting, drops of water falling onto his forehead.


That was the problem of having dark hair. When it snowed, it looked as though you had dandruff. Well very big dandruff.


He was nearing one of the busiest streets in New York. He knew that he would most likely be glared at, sneered at, shoved, winked at, and practically frisked.


But he also knew that he was going to be smiled at by someone.


Which, not known to a lot of people, could make someone's day amazing. No matter who it is that gives the smile.


It was all that he needed. A smile.


He crossed onto the busiest street, feeling people shove him, just as he had predicted.

A boy with a Mohawk sneered at him, just as he had predicted. An attractive blonde wearing nearly nothing winked at him, just as he had predicted.


Luckily, though, his prediction about being frisked did not come true.


It happened just as he turned the corner.


Have you ever had one of those moments? That moment when a couple seconds feels like a lifetime? Where two pairs of eyes meet, and it's as though the world has stopped?


She wasn't particularly tall. She wasn't blonde. She wasn't a skinny stick. She was just right.


Their eyes met.


She was about five foot four, maybe a little taller, with short black hair. There was a light pink streak at the front of her hair, setting off her bright green eyes. When she moved, her hair followed her, swinging around her shoulders as much as her short hair could.


She was beautiful.


The time that passed when their eyes met felt like a hundred years, when, in reality, it had only been a couple of seconds. It was as though, within those few seconds that their eyes met, he could see into her soul, and she could see into his.


She was the girl for him.


But there was another man standing next to her.


He didn't seem to notice how she seemed to tune out what he was saying, her eyes finding the ones belonging to the handsome man that she felt she had known forever.


She seemed to be around the same age as him, maybe a little younger, maybe a little older. You could never really tell with women, since they had all those makeup tricks.


Up until then, the most attractive woman he had ever known was his ex-wife, who was blonde and skinny with rather large breasts.


It was amazing how a few seconds could change the remainder of your life.


He should have been happy; having the most beautiful girl he had ever seen taking an interest in him.


But she was with another man. And he knew that he could never compete with another man and what's more, it was very likely that they were never see each other again as long as they lived.


Knowing this, she almost started crying right there on the sidewalk.


He thought how amazing it was how much you can think in the time frame of a couple seconds. What his life would have been like if he had her, the things they would have done, how happy they could have made each other.


But she supposed it wasn't meant to be. God was subtle, sure, but he wasn't malicious.


But when they passed each other, on that cold, snowy January night, the thoughts of what their lives could have been like weighed them down as their lives were changed forever.


And as they walked past each other, and time slowed just for them, and their eyes sought the others, the girl smiled.


And time went on.


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Monday, March 13, 2006
「 MOO! 8:32 pm 」

Choir stank today. We definitely bombed this time. Ms Lim wants to quit. She says she not sure when, but its definitely gonna be this year. This shit whomps big time. i don't know about the concert group. But the competition group seem pretty un-serious about this thing. But you know what? I've never wanted anything so much before. i want to go on that trip and get that Recognition from the entire whole entire bloody world. More than ANYTHING. Could i emphasize anymore? Probably not... But i do want this as bad as a certain other thing. Yeah. That thing. Oh well.. i cant dwell on this thing forever. So... ON TO BETTER THINGS!


jake

ISN'T HE HOT? i think I'm in loooove. Never mind the pink hair and shirt. LOOK AT HIS GORGEOUS FACE! HAHA. In my brilliant fantasy... Woah. It would be Sooo cool.


anyways so i don't feel like elaborating on my dumb day anymore so Ciaos.

MUCH LOVE!!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Sunday, March 12, 2006
「 MOO! 9:17 pm 」

so its sunday. whoopie. i cant wait for tomorrow. it's the holidays! i love them. finally. after 2 months of hard schooling. whew. cant believe it passed by soooo damn quickly. LOVE IT. imma list down all the things i love.

1)my guitar
2)my dogs
3)Lois, shiyi, xiao yan, samantha, chulien, and loads of other people.
4)chocolates
5)service learning(it wasnt that bad in the end)
6)my grandfather
7)candy and gummies
8)baby pictures, both mine and others
9)writing
10)FICTION!

so that's top 10 and i'm an uber lazy ass to type down more. i wish that my school would give us homework via internet and we submit vis internet. tell me. how cool would that be? no more writing my poor fingers off. just typing all day. soooo damn simple. and no pain just pretty pretty fingers. and also no more pieces of tattered papers and files that go missing. just simply back up what ever you have on a thumb drive and thats it. whoo... majorly cool aint it?

MUCH LOVE!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Thursday, March 09, 2006
「 MOO! 10:05 pm 」

i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.


i've often wondered what the meaning of a heart as cold and as heavy as ice meant. now i know. it's that feeling of dread and your heart feels like its deep in your gut. and it feels like super heavy and its as if its gonna drop any minute as soon as you let it go. if things dont change soon and i dont find out about some things soon i think i might die. i've never felt like this. i've never thought of myself being this way.. I DONT KNOW WHO THIS BLOODY PERSON IS! then i also dont want to know who that other person is.


DUDE. the person who i'm asking to sod off is abhilash latiff.(not that he'll ever read this tho) that ewuch persson or thing. total digust.

anyways, today was mostly group work lah. aunty jane disappeared. where did she go to? i mean it doesnt matter that she was a grumpy old lady. she shouldnt have to transfer to anywhere. just because she's not exactly the brightest person around is not a really good reason right? shiyi says i'm complaining alot these days. i think she might be right. but then again. i'm totally proving the fact that i'm human and i dislike loads of things =))

happy sad elated depressed escastic glumpy confused cloud9 wicked gloomy. tell me why life always gives you stuff that you never want to deal with to deal with? i'm dry swallowing a pink pill. i feel fear in a handful of dust. quote from stephen king's dark tower.

MUCH LOVE!!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Wednesday, March 08, 2006
「 MOO! 9:03 pm 」

LOIS keeps asking everyone if they miss her. she asked shiyi to ask everone if they missed her. HAHA. i think it cos she misses us soooooo much. (can you sense the self love?) anyways, the aunties sure were grumpy today. no food? no talk. HAHA. like some chinese kung fu drama. but... ON TO SOMETHING ELSE. i was in major depression today man. i dont think that i want to share it but then i'm feeling super weird. its like a goose walked across my grave. you know when you feel butterflies in your stomach? and then you know something is gonna happen? but you dont really know what.. its as if my gut feeling is trying to tell me something. and normally that feeling is right.


sod off lah. dont your eyes get tired after staring the whole day? i feel like punching you in the face and poking your eyes out. if you push me too far i promise and bet my ass that i will do that.


O-WEE is cool. he wanted me to say that. not that i wanted to or anything. oh, and squigglys are cuter then straightys. ~~~~ see? CUTE right? ----- see? BOR-RING! well that was way random. HAH


MUCH LOVE!!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Tuesday, March 07, 2006
「 MOO! 9:29 pm 」

LOIS YEO! asked me to post today. i just posted yesterday. hrrmph. well today was... tiring. we wheeled the elderly to Lot 1 under the hot sweltering sun. i'm like goodness me. we are all gonna melt. so it started like with me being late 15mins. 188 was sooooo slow. pfft. then i walked-ran to meet atikah and the rest. then there was a breifing for us like what we were going to do that day. then we went off to talk to the elderly again. and found out that the lady we were talking to was called jane berdenette tan. wow. can you say nice middle name? so it turns out that she was abandoned by her parents and she has lived off welfare her whole life (no wonder she so bitter and cynical about life) and she has moved from hursing home to nursing home, at least 4 times. from woodlands to bedok then to some hospital and then recently to chua chu kang.she's been living here for 5 years now. shes 80 years old. and shes waiting for god to take her. when i heard that i was like, whoa. why are you waiting to die? but then shes 80 years old. and shes got not much and no one to live for so, yup. figures that heaven would be better for her. then again... i dont want to think so hard. LAFFYETTE KEEPS BULLYING ME! punch, punch, hit, hit. major pain city. oh and it's kuku bear bear. ehhh. why?

I MISS LOIS. I MISS XIAO YAN. but i dont miss shiyi. cos i see her everyday. oh and i definitely do NOT miss abhilash. i feel like punching him in the face. and giving him two black eyes. maybe then he'll stop starin.

rain rain go away. come again another day. there has been ZERO rain for days. i need the stupid rain. chicka chicka boom boom. i'm dying of boredom. ENTERTAIN ME PEOPLE!

i'm off to practice my guitar. but guess what? i suck. big surprise. =))

MUCH LOVE!!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Monday, March 06, 2006
「 MOO! 7:44 pm 」

we went for service learning today. i was so tired. it was... eh. interesting? old people. i wonder what it would be like to be that old. i felt sorry for them. if i were them. i'd feel sorry for me too. oh. i'm a total blunder head. haha. i thought i lost my ez link card and then i found it in my pocket. boo. i'm a kuku boo boo head as laffyette says. so i was talking to this lady today and she complained alot. when i say alot i really mean ALOT alot. everyone in the home was crazy, and everyone she doesnt like. but i think that we really did her good listening to her rants.. eh. i'm a awful doof.


i'm happy and i'm sad. i'm happy and i'm sad. i'm happy and i'm sad. how i wish i was more happy then sad. and also i'm bored =))


i love being nonsensical. whoo. brainless=nicole and all that shit.



OOH!
this is the nicest one.

SPASTIC
spastic people. LOOK AT LAFFYETTE'S FACE!

<I DONT CARE
I DONT CARE! HAH!


by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away


Friday, March 03, 2006
「 MOO! 4:15 pm 」

IT'S BEEN A WHOLE WEEK SINCE I'VE BLOGGED. so this week has been pretty eventful.. but i couldnt care to blog so much. we got our PPR today and i am so disappointed. i've got like only A2s no 1s at all.. this whomps..

by nicole, the one and only

the cow flew away